Divine Healing and Wisdom

It was a long time ago that i wrote a blog-post here and I want to apologize to you for taking so long! I had to focus on my spiritual and personal journey and to be more in the present and enjoying it and live life fully and authentically. I have let go of the feeling that i need to live by and follow rules or opinions made by other people through tarot and oraclecards and angel numbers, which i feeling a big relief because i felt like I followed a scheme or a script that felt wrong to me. I went from feeling more anxious, fearful, shameful and having stronger thoughts and feelings of OCD to being relaxed, peaceful, authentic and happy. Now and before I started with tarot and oraclecards and following Angel Numbers, which was only a phase that I now have outgrown, I lived life according to my own intuition, soul, heart, inner truths and values and lived in the moment and not tried to follow expectations or dogma put on me by others. These spiritual tools comes with a lot of dogma and people´s own opinions and views attached to it and it´s easy to let the fear and shame that these people their perspectives ak.a. dogma brings you affect you and making you loosing your own sense of self, especially if you like me have struggled and still struggles with depression, anxiety and OCD which heavily is triggered by this. For me these expectations and opinions triggered much both religious and spiritual anxiety, which triggered as I mentioned above my OCD to an extreme. It made me feel like I need to be a certain way, love and like or do certain things and not others in order for me to be “pure”, “righteous” and “good enough” for the Divine so that they would not be upset with me and want to punish me. These thoghts and feelings that I got from my OCD, because of other people´s dogma, beliefs and way of living, was of course not true at least not to me and when I after a long time of healing understood that being my imperfect and authentical self is enough and that I don´t need to follow certain “rules” and/or “norms” to be loved, accepted and enough I took back my own power and living my life on my own terms and it´s doesn´t matter if other people say that it´s wrong what feels right for me it´s right and anxiety, depression and OCD never tells the truth I could finally find myself again.